Depersonalisation

 

Have you ever felt as though you were standing outside of your body and that things have become unfocused and not quite real? Have you found yourself driving from one place to another and suddenly not being able to remember having done so? Do you often or always experience a panic attack when this feeling comes upon you? If so, you may be suffering what is known as depersonalisation or dissociation. Many BPs fall somewhere on the scale of 4 or 5 in terms of this phenomenon where 0 is never having experienced the state to 10 where one is diagnosed as having dissociative identity disorder or DID. It's important to know that just because you experience this state it doesn't mean you are or ever will become DID which is a much more serious disorder not directly related to trancing out and such. It is important to know that if you experience panic attacks that often this mind state can serve as an indication that one is on the way and thus it gives you some time to react and do those things which might decrease the likelihood of the attack.

 

Here are some of the common ways of describing this mind state:

  • An experience where the self is felt to be unreal, detached from reality or different in some way. Depersonalisation can be triggered by tiredness, dissociative episodes or partial epileptic seizures.
  • feeling of falling into a void 
  • sensitivity to light and sound 
  • tunnel vision 
  • feeling as if your body is expanded so that it feels larger than normal 
  • feeling as if your body has shrunk to smaller than normal 
  • feel as if your body is being pressed to the ground 
  • stationary objects sometimes or frequently appear to move 
  • Driving a car and suddenly realise you don't remember what has happened during all or part of the trip 
  • Listening to someone talk and realising you did not hear part/all of what was said 
  • Experience a feeling as though you are standing next to yourself and watching yourself do something 
  • Sometimes sit staring off into space, thinking nothing and unaware of the passage of time 

 

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