Cocaine 

 

The white lady, as coke is known to those who've followed her siren's song, is a seductive and ultimately severely impairing drug. It was my drug of choice and the high is still in my memory though it has been well over 11 years since she and I partnered one another. Why we bipolar folks are attracted to her is pretty easy to understand if you've ever felt the euphoric rush of good clean cocaine as it hits your system. Self-medication with coke was so tempting as it could immediately take me from a depressive low to the height of feeling just too good for words. Coke made me the life of the party which I tended to be anyway due to being more or less manic much of the time, but coke was the key ingredient to my self-med cocktail and I would do just about anything for it. It is a powerful psychotropic drug that gradually can destroy the normal pleasure centres of the brain making one even more likely to need its powerful boost to make it through the day. The use of cocaine is almost always accompanied by a concomitant use of copious quantities of alcohol, thus making a particularly volatile mix of two mind/mood enhancing agents. I did coke for years and have a perforated septum in my nose to show for it among other injuries I incurred while literally "coked" out. I used the alcohol to tame the high when it would begin to send me so high I would start to lose touch with reality. My cocaine/alcohol binges went on for months and usually ended with a hospital trip or a car wreck, sometimes both. Not the way to fly guys so do read up on this drug by looking through some of the resources here.

 

 

Some resources on cocaine use and addiction...